Spend my last paycheck
Buy you something nice
Maybe a necklace with a hollow center
How symbolic...
Think of all the things that could have been
But will never ever be
Everything was dying in your grip
You couldn't let it go
And now you don't have to
Cause everything is gone.
5:47pm August 7,2016 © Kayla Napua Kong
Showing posts with label never. Show all posts
Showing posts with label never. Show all posts
There is only Plan A.
The reason I was born
is still the reason I was born
--it's do or die--
and I'll never let that knowledge slip my mind.
March 6, 2014 © Kayla Napua Kong
Always in my wildest dreams
So many amazing, unbelievable, things happen to people who, when asked if they ever dreamed this would happen to them, say: "never in my wildest dreams!" or "I didn't even have the capacity to dream or even think this big!" or "I had never even imagined this was even possible!". Often these things happen to the unsuspecting, "humble", folks...
But for me it's gonna be different because, one day, when people ask me if I ever dreamed this would happen, I'm gonna say "Yes". It may not sound as "humble" as being totally oblivious to a miracle but, I will say "Yes", and I'll be proud of it because only a dreamer can say that! Most people don't know what it takes to be a dreamer and how strong you have to be to protect and hold onto your dream. Dreaming isn't easy and it's not for the faint of heart. It requires guts to open up the deepest part of your heart and soul and risk it's vulnerability to the possibility of disappointment and destruction.
Most people don't know what it really is to dream. A dream isn't just something that you think up for fun because you don't believe it will ever happen. A dream is actually something that you truly believe in, in the center of your being, even though there is no physical proof or logic to reassure you. It appears to have no safety net because it is a gamble (and it's all or nothing!). A dream is a walk (and sometimes a marathon) in the darkness led only by your gut. A dream is a life line that consumes the life you have now. It is a future!
Most people don't realize that the fact that you dreamed it first means so much more--not only because of WHAT it is that happened but WHY--because you KNEW it would--and because of HOW it came to BE.
When all the odds were stacked against it far before it came true, in the end it made it, and survived the journey just like you! To me, the fact that you had the ability to reach for and the capacity to believe in the impossible; the endurance to keep going when it still didn't happen yet after years of trying; the perseverance through the hardest times when that dream was the only thing left of your life to live for; the fact that you still held onto it; and the fact that you recognized it was REAL and, above all, treasured that sacred knowledge; makes you more deserving of that miracle than anyone who NEVER SAW IT COMING.
March 6, 2014 9am © Kayla Napua Kong
But for me it's gonna be different because, one day, when people ask me if I ever dreamed this would happen, I'm gonna say "Yes". It may not sound as "humble" as being totally oblivious to a miracle but, I will say "Yes", and I'll be proud of it because only a dreamer can say that! Most people don't know what it takes to be a dreamer and how strong you have to be to protect and hold onto your dream. Dreaming isn't easy and it's not for the faint of heart. It requires guts to open up the deepest part of your heart and soul and risk it's vulnerability to the possibility of disappointment and destruction.
Most people don't know what it really is to dream. A dream isn't just something that you think up for fun because you don't believe it will ever happen. A dream is actually something that you truly believe in, in the center of your being, even though there is no physical proof or logic to reassure you. It appears to have no safety net because it is a gamble (and it's all or nothing!). A dream is a walk (and sometimes a marathon) in the darkness led only by your gut. A dream is a life line that consumes the life you have now. It is a future!
Most people don't realize that the fact that you dreamed it first means so much more--not only because of WHAT it is that happened but WHY--because you KNEW it would--and because of HOW it came to BE.
When all the odds were stacked against it far before it came true, in the end it made it, and survived the journey just like you! To me, the fact that you had the ability to reach for and the capacity to believe in the impossible; the endurance to keep going when it still didn't happen yet after years of trying; the perseverance through the hardest times when that dream was the only thing left of your life to live for; the fact that you still held onto it; and the fact that you recognized it was REAL and, above all, treasured that sacred knowledge; makes you more deserving of that miracle than anyone who NEVER SAW IT COMING.
March 6, 2014 9am © Kayla Napua Kong
Letting
It's scary
to become who you're meant to be
letting go of the miserable life you had
in order to get the life you've always wanted
letting go of the old
to make room for the new
letting the dead things die
and deleting the things that help you remember
because, honestly, you will never forget
and going out into the unknown
because you're certain of your future
1-27-2013 Sun. 6:32pm © Kayla Napua Kong
The Thought and The Heart
It's not just the present,
it's having the present in the present,
it's what you did to get it and what it means to have it before my very eyes
(right now)
what it means to want when there was no means
and then to receive when I didn't expect to
--and from you, you and you--
that's what makes it more than a present but a true gift!
At times like this,
when things aren't glowing as brightly as we are
and all around us looks the same,
when we seem to be in the same place as we were yesterday,
your gift has done things that I would have never known.
It is something I did not expect.
The action of you doing something different
and, of all times, right now,
has changed the repetition of the past
(a past in which our world did not turn and time did not pass)
what you have done has moved me
(we once were invisible beings)
now you have touched me...
within my tears that are like the sea
~the thought and the heart~
I will never forget.
Love,
Kayla ♡
© December 25th, 2012 Kayla Napua Kong
Gamble
- Never stop playing the game
- don't give up
- roll the dice
- take the risk
: Gamble
11-20-2012 © Kayla Napua Kong
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