If worse comes to worst

Spend my last paycheck

Buy you something nice

Maybe a necklace with a hollow center

How symbolic...

Think of all the things that could have been

But will never ever be

Everything was dying in your grip

You couldn't let it go

And now you don't have to

Cause everything is gone.


5:47pm August 7,2016 © Kayla Napua Kong

Remembering a dream...

when her heart stopped

my heart started


she sleeps forever

i am finally awake

but i can never wake up from this nightmare

only to saddness from this good dream

i never want to forget her

she's slipping away...

but i won't let her.

© July 17, 2016

Sweet dreams...

I woke up in the morning and forgot that you were gone for, in my memory, you just fell asleep...


Years ago feel like yesterday

Like hours of sleep feel like minutes passed


It feels like I may have dreamt her... for everything about her was perfect.

© July 15, 2016 9:00am - July 17, 2016

little thumbnail

I have to admit

I forgot about you

I think of you so often

everyday since you've been gone

but I know I forgot about you

or maybe I just haven't been thinking about you for a few hours or minutes...

or maybe I had just forgotten that time

that little moment in time

do you remember that one time?...

anyways...

I was signing in to some old accounts

and checking if I could delete them now

since they're so old

and I haven't used them in so long

they were just floating around

out there in cyberspace...

I signed in to an old account that I hadn't signed in to in ages...

I used to use that account to store some pictures

and I know I forgot about this

because when I went in to check

to check what I used to use this account for

I seen a little tiny square

a little thumbnail

and my heart sank because it was a thumbnail...

of you--





and I know I had forgotten...

because, if I hadn't, my heart wouldn't have felt the pang

it wouldn't have felt the difference of feeling normal

to suddenly feeling sad

a little heart feeling...

it wouldn't have felt the reminder

that even though my life somehow feels almost the same

it is not

because I just remembered

because for a few minutes I had forgotten

that you are gone.


Kayla Napua Kong © October 21, 2012 3:38am
(little edits done on December 1, 2012 Sat.)